ryan montbleau LYRICS 

I DON'T WANT TO GO

 

It is the summer of 2010 I'm walking 'round the island
The sun is glowing red and fading slow
I am all alone with my old friend Psilocybin
And that sun is blazing a brighter red than I've ever seen before

And the woman that I love is working at the station
And in two days from now I'll leave again
And it stops me in my tracks
To feel a strange sensation
That I’ve not felt since I don’t remember when

I don't want to go
I don’t want to go

It is late summer 1999
I just dropped off a friend of mine
In the old car that I have but I do not own
And there’s a song called “Drifting”
By Jimi Hendrix on my radio
And the tears have never rained down quite as much as this before

My job at the mall
Pays me just fine
And my room at the house is small but it’s mine
And in two weeks from now
We’ll all off go off to college
Why now when everything was fine?

I don't want to go
I don't want to go
I don't want to go away and leave you here
The days turn into weeks and years
So soon, too soon before we know
I don't want to go

It is Christmas time of ‘84
I’m watching the old video
Of me, my brother, and my mother
Laughing on the couch
And my father leaves the camera to get into the frame with us
And my mother’s holding all of us
The way she always does
Someday there’ll be a last time
That we are all together
And when it is I do not get to know

But I don't want to go
I don't want to go
I don't want to go away and leave you here
The days turn into weeks and years
So soon, too soon before we know
And I don't want to go
I don't want to go
I don't want to go


It is the dawn of 2020
I’m still working on my vision
I’m still wishing for a love to call my own
And I am healthy and I savor
The fruits of all my labor
Life is good these days
Although I’m still alone
And the woman that I love
Is waiting for me somewhere
And I have faith she’s somewhere close to me now
And I’m a sucker for a pretty face
And more so for temptation
And I'll miss the party but I should head on home for now

I don’t want to go
I don’t want to go
I don’t want to go away and leave you here
The days turn into weeks and years
So soon, too soon before we know
I don’t want to go
I don't want to go
I don't want to go
I don't want to go